I'm back from my hiatus!!! Never knew there was one though... Anyway things are looking pretty good on the romantic front. Everything's progressing along nicely, except for the overcoming temptation bit, heheh
Updates when i feel like it
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Monday, July 30, 2007
Old and New
L said yes to Haf Jap, so i guess it's official now. I have to admit, a small part of me was sad and my heart skipped a beat, but there was really no other way. They seem really happy together, and i hav azur with me...Is she more than i deserve?
We'll be celebrating her birthday later, i hope everything goes well. Lunch at delifranc, movie at vivcity (51 Bucks!!) and dinner at swens. I got her a necklace and earrings, with L's help :)
I guess my biggest fear is looking deep within myself and finding nothing but a well of dissatisfaction. The fear of being inadequate, of finding inadequacy in others. To be truly grateful, syukur, that is one of my greatest wishes. A fine line exists between the drive to succeed, and the desperation of never stopping. That wisdom is not mine yet.
Can it ever be?
We'll be celebrating her birthday later, i hope everything goes well. Lunch at delifranc, movie at vivcity (51 Bucks!!) and dinner at swens. I got her a necklace and earrings, with L's help :)
I guess my biggest fear is looking deep within myself and finding nothing but a well of dissatisfaction. The fear of being inadequate, of finding inadequacy in others. To be truly grateful, syukur, that is one of my greatest wishes. A fine line exists between the drive to succeed, and the desperation of never stopping. That wisdom is not mine yet.
Can it ever be?
Friday, July 27, 2007
Tropical Paradise
Well, i'm back from my holiday in Tiom, spent 3 fun days there, with 8 of my teammates.
Recording their names/acronyms or is that initialisms (?) for posterity : Shaz, S.F, Izza, W, L, Sye, Aidi and N Sup.
We went snorkelling, with me jabbering "fishies, fishies!!" like some idiot hahaha. The 2nd stop on the snorkelling trip was excellent. Water conditions were not optimal, but plenty of colourful creatures to see nonetheless. Especially the school of filefish, i think that's what they were called.
Before that was the trek to the freaking cold waterfall. Splashed around in the water like babies, shivering away... But not before we spent 45 minutes in a futile effort to find a better spot.
Higher, Colder!!! :p
Played games late at night, 'chop chili chop' and what-not. Sharing secrets with the rest, all in good fun.
Personally, the highlight for me was the time spent with L (who else)
On the bus and in bed, heheh. At least now i know, that she actually had me in consideration, and that it wasn't all in my head :p
Cuma lambat setapak dok... Anyway, we spent many close/intimate moments together. The massage late at night was nice, and sensual, for me anyway :)
How often do you get to give a massage to a pretty lady? And in that moment i could have kissed her, which i didnt. And the next night we slept in the same bed, which is certainly a new experience for me... Izza found us in bed the next morning hahaha
Well, i hope no-one else finds out about it, especially azur :p
But this trip has been really great, now that i can end the process of letting go of L, and really focusing on my relationship with azur. Plus i think L is gonna say yes to Haf Jap. Good for her. She made him wait 6 bloody months, my bad.
But but but why dwell on all that? It's azur's birthday today, and i hope she loves my gifts, hopefully, she loves me more than them heheh.
On another note, i finally applied for driving, with L hahaha. Watch out roads, here i come!
Recording their names/acronyms or is that initialisms (?) for posterity : Shaz, S.F, Izza, W, L, Sye, Aidi and N Sup.
We went snorkelling, with me jabbering "fishies, fishies!!" like some idiot hahaha. The 2nd stop on the snorkelling trip was excellent. Water conditions were not optimal, but plenty of colourful creatures to see nonetheless. Especially the school of filefish, i think that's what they were called.
Before that was the trek to the freaking cold waterfall. Splashed around in the water like babies, shivering away... But not before we spent 45 minutes in a futile effort to find a better spot.
Higher, Colder!!! :p
Played games late at night, 'chop chili chop' and what-not. Sharing secrets with the rest, all in good fun.
Personally, the highlight for me was the time spent with L (who else)
On the bus and in bed, heheh. At least now i know, that she actually had me in consideration, and that it wasn't all in my head :p
Cuma lambat setapak dok... Anyway, we spent many close/intimate moments together. The massage late at night was nice, and sensual, for me anyway :)
How often do you get to give a massage to a pretty lady? And in that moment i could have kissed her, which i didnt. And the next night we slept in the same bed, which is certainly a new experience for me... Izza found us in bed the next morning hahaha
Well, i hope no-one else finds out about it, especially azur :p
But this trip has been really great, now that i can end the process of letting go of L, and really focusing on my relationship with azur. Plus i think L is gonna say yes to Haf Jap. Good for her. She made him wait 6 bloody months, my bad.
But but but why dwell on all that? It's azur's birthday today, and i hope she loves my gifts, hopefully, she loves me more than them heheh.
On another note, i finally applied for driving, with L hahaha. Watch out roads, here i come!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Handover
It's done, im no longer the president, blessed relief :)
But H is damned pissed at me. Why, i have no idea. I didnt even give her the gift...which hurts me more than i care to admit :p
Anyway, spent the day at the island beach, damn fun. i expected more people to come, but beggars cant be choosers. Played many game, beat some guys at beach soccer, pretty damn good, i have to say...
Then berendam in the water with 4 ladies, how often do u get to do that? hahaha
Chatted about a lot of stuff, relationships etc. With L, Sya, Hali and N Sup. And L is definitely more affectionate nowadays, esp when we were grocery shopping the previous day. Even Hali and N Sup thought we had something going on :p
Oh well...
Had a street soccer tourney today at ghi mo. lost in the quarters, played only 2 games, cos 2 blardy teams in our group didnt turn up. And i scored 3 goals!!! (1 deflected in heh)
But we lost in the quarters, to a bunch of kids. But damn, they were freaking fast...
Watched a movie with azur, Zo and kami. The latest HP movie. Not bad, pretty dark, but i kinda preferred the previous one. Sent azur home, spent a few intimate moments... I gotta watch my expenditure, cash is running dangerously low again, and i still have 3 things to spend on. 2 holiday trips, and azurs bdae...
Meh
But H is damned pissed at me. Why, i have no idea. I didnt even give her the gift...which hurts me more than i care to admit :p
Anyway, spent the day at the island beach, damn fun. i expected more people to come, but beggars cant be choosers. Played many game, beat some guys at beach soccer, pretty damn good, i have to say...
Then berendam in the water with 4 ladies, how often do u get to do that? hahaha
Chatted about a lot of stuff, relationships etc. With L, Sya, Hali and N Sup. And L is definitely more affectionate nowadays, esp when we were grocery shopping the previous day. Even Hali and N Sup thought we had something going on :p
Oh well...
Had a street soccer tourney today at ghi mo. lost in the quarters, played only 2 games, cos 2 blardy teams in our group didnt turn up. And i scored 3 goals!!! (1 deflected in heh)
But we lost in the quarters, to a bunch of kids. But damn, they were freaking fast...
Watched a movie with azur, Zo and kami. The latest HP movie. Not bad, pretty dark, but i kinda preferred the previous one. Sent azur home, spent a few intimate moments... I gotta watch my expenditure, cash is running dangerously low again, and i still have 3 things to spend on. 2 holiday trips, and azurs bdae...
Meh
Monday, July 9, 2007
070707
She said yes :)
Please don't let me screw this up.
Oh and i got silver. Pretty damn good methinks.
Please don't let me screw this up.
Oh and i got silver. Pretty damn good methinks.
Friday, July 6, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Torn
I'm torn...
I have almost everything that i have ever wished for. So why am i torn between the two of them?
Why is it so hard to choose? Am i forever doomed into believing that the grass is greener on the other side? That there is always someone better around the corner? Two wonderful women, and i don't deserve either one...
Why am i torn? Because the prize is sweeter when the struggle is bitter?
God knows
I have almost everything that i have ever wished for. So why am i torn between the two of them?
Why is it so hard to choose? Am i forever doomed into believing that the grass is greener on the other side? That there is always someone better around the corner? Two wonderful women, and i don't deserve either one...
Why am i torn? Because the prize is sweeter when the struggle is bitter?
God knows
Monday, July 2, 2007
Finals
I'm in the finals!!! And i can almost smell the silver/gold medal...I played like crap, but im injury-free and victorious, so im thankful.
Anyway, Azur accompanied me all the way to bedok, so does that make us semi-official? I enjoy her company, and it seems she feels the same way too :)
But I had to make a choice the nite before, cos both L and Azur wanted to accompany me to bedok, wth? It was tough, but i know who i chose...a sign of things to come?
But but but, i went home with L after the whole thing, tsk tsk. Apparently she knew abt me and F A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO!! And kept her pretty mouth shut :p
Ahh, had a soccer game, won 2-0, Li and MN scored, fabulous...
On friday, we had an outing, ate at bukit timah, western food, then lepak-ed in town, finishing off at JEC with the jurong gang.
Spent time with L, as always. it's way more than a physical attraction... I enjoy sharing my views with her, and we have a lot of things in common. And F was behaving weirdly towards me...but everything seems ok-ish now.
1 more game!!
Anyway, Azur accompanied me all the way to bedok, so does that make us semi-official? I enjoy her company, and it seems she feels the same way too :)
But I had to make a choice the nite before, cos both L and Azur wanted to accompany me to bedok, wth? It was tough, but i know who i chose...a sign of things to come?
But but but, i went home with L after the whole thing, tsk tsk. Apparently she knew abt me and F A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO!! And kept her pretty mouth shut :p
Ahh, had a soccer game, won 2-0, Li and MN scored, fabulous...
On friday, we had an outing, ate at bukit timah, western food, then lepak-ed in town, finishing off at JEC with the jurong gang.
Spent time with L, as always. it's way more than a physical attraction... I enjoy sharing my views with her, and we have a lot of things in common. And F was behaving weirdly towards me...but everything seems ok-ish now.
1 more game!!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Semis
I guess i somehow ended up in the semis. Met the same guy as in the inter-school c'ships.
I remember i was damn nervous, especially after taking a crap in the federation's toilets heheh.
Like all of a sudden it suddenly hit me that i was playing in the nationals again.
I can be a dumbass that way :p
I won, cos he seemed a bit fearful/hesitant. especially after i buanged him twice within the first minute. That helped a lot in my own confidence.
Plus i had many fun smses with L the night before. Cheered me up a lot...
I'm going out with Azur again tmrw, F&O at vivcity. I hope it'll go smoothly...
She had breakfast with me before my match, kasi semangat lah katakan :)
Can this go all the way? Fingers crossed.
I remember i was damn nervous, especially after taking a crap in the federation's toilets heheh.
Like all of a sudden it suddenly hit me that i was playing in the nationals again.
I can be a dumbass that way :p
I won, cos he seemed a bit fearful/hesitant. especially after i buanged him twice within the first minute. That helped a lot in my own confidence.
Plus i had many fun smses with L the night before. Cheered me up a lot...
I'm going out with Azur again tmrw, F&O at vivcity. I hope it'll go smoothly...
She had breakfast with me before my match, kasi semangat lah katakan :)
Can this go all the way? Fingers crossed.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Birthday Gifts
This post might be a wee bit late, but who gives a damn?
Sorting out my b'day gifts this year...
A cap from F, plus a sweet drawing reminiscing the time we spent together.
Another cap plus a running t-shirt from K Rubs, plus chocs :)
A shoe bag from H and MN, to replace my old one heheh
A birthday cake from L and Zo, from SecRec, plastered on my face so that i won't forget...
A puma t-shirt from S :)
It's been amazing, the stuff i got this year, whoa. I love them all. Plus the gift-bearers as well hahaha.
Anyway, i had to include my ikea trip with L during the c'ships.
We spent a lot of time together, and i relish every single moment spent together, especially since i know that it's highly unlikely we'll end up together.
We had lunch at SecRec this afternoon, 11 of us. Great fun, especially since L was there...
Sat next to her, had a quiet conversation. Same thing at the meeting in school. *sigh*
Is there no end to my infatuation? And i told H about Azur. And she was shocked. Why?
And it's the end of the road for me and S. Bittersweet.
Sorting out my b'day gifts this year...
A cap from F, plus a sweet drawing reminiscing the time we spent together.
Another cap plus a running t-shirt from K Rubs, plus chocs :)
A shoe bag from H and MN, to replace my old one heheh
A birthday cake from L and Zo, from SecRec, plastered on my face so that i won't forget...
A puma t-shirt from S :)
It's been amazing, the stuff i got this year, whoa. I love them all. Plus the gift-bearers as well hahaha.
Anyway, i had to include my ikea trip with L during the c'ships.
We spent a lot of time together, and i relish every single moment spent together, especially since i know that it's highly unlikely we'll end up together.
We had lunch at SecRec this afternoon, 11 of us. Great fun, especially since L was there...
Sat next to her, had a quiet conversation. Same thing at the meeting in school. *sigh*
Is there no end to my infatuation? And i told H about Azur. And she was shocked. Why?
And it's the end of the road for me and S. Bittersweet.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
RamTen and Eatz
Went out with Azur. damn fun, really enjoyed myself, great company. I think there might be something in this...
But how to let go of L? And now Syik tells me to keep on fighting? Wah lau eh...
But how to let go of L? And now Syik tells me to keep on fighting? Wah lau eh...
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Crossroads
What do I do from here? Wait for L to decide, or move on? I actually discussed this with my mum, damn...
And did i just ask Azur out? And did she just accept? What the hell am i doing? Exciting times lie ahead.
Nationals start this week...best of luck to me :)
And did i just ask Azur out? And did she just accept? What the hell am i doing? Exciting times lie ahead.
Nationals start this week...best of luck to me :)
Monday, June 11, 2007
Victory
Well...I won!!!! Still hasn't quite sunk in yet, i guess. At the end of the first round, ader cuak sikit, cos i got scissored :p first time i fell in the competition
Niwae, managed to fight back n the 3rd round, kais-ed his leg, cool sia, if i may say so myself heheh
Then scissored him, to pay back the 2 he gave me.
I almost cried at the end, esp when Kak Rubs hugged me, she was crying buckets. Apparently she'll be leaving soon, bawak diri, for how long, i don't know.
S came to watch my match, and she brought her entire family... Spent some time with her, lotsa hugging all round ;)
The guys/gals celebrated my birthday, whee!!! A huge choc cake from SecRec, i like!!! Plus got nice gifts from H&MN and F, man i love my best friend.
It's been a long, fun-filled couple of weeks. I got to hang out with L, so that was definitely a huge bonus. It feels like we've gotten a lot closer, i hope that's not just in my head :p
She treated me to a meal at BK, plus i brought her home, sembahyang and stuff. So my mum dah nampak lah ni... The cake was from her and Zo, so sweet. I think F has given up or something, maybe it's for the best. I really can't see a way out for me...I'm absolutely smitten with L...susah lah gini.
I went to Fadi's place after my semis, she looks diff with make-up and all. It was great to catch up with her, married lady now :)
Should i change my passwords then? Hmmm
Focusing on the nationals now...And ooh, i got interviewed, gonna appear on tv tonite, yayy!!!
All I want is you
Niwae, managed to fight back n the 3rd round, kais-ed his leg, cool sia, if i may say so myself heheh
Then scissored him, to pay back the 2 he gave me.
I almost cried at the end, esp when Kak Rubs hugged me, she was crying buckets. Apparently she'll be leaving soon, bawak diri, for how long, i don't know.
S came to watch my match, and she brought her entire family... Spent some time with her, lotsa hugging all round ;)
The guys/gals celebrated my birthday, whee!!! A huge choc cake from SecRec, i like!!! Plus got nice gifts from H&MN and F, man i love my best friend.
It's been a long, fun-filled couple of weeks. I got to hang out with L, so that was definitely a huge bonus. It feels like we've gotten a lot closer, i hope that's not just in my head :p
She treated me to a meal at BK, plus i brought her home, sembahyang and stuff. So my mum dah nampak lah ni... The cake was from her and Zo, so sweet. I think F has given up or something, maybe it's for the best. I really can't see a way out for me...I'm absolutely smitten with L...susah lah gini.
I went to Fadi's place after my semis, she looks diff with make-up and all. It was great to catch up with her, married lady now :)
Should i change my passwords then? Hmmm
Focusing on the nationals now...And ooh, i got interviewed, gonna appear on tv tonite, yayy!!!
All I want is you
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Tak Seimbang
First time I got that during a match :)
All in all, a very satisfying weekend. Could have gone better, especially with some nitty-gritty details in admin stuff, my fault for not briefing our managers properly. Plus i'm getting really pissed off with the coaches' unprofessional attitude, compounded with the referees' bias, and we have a recipe for disaster.
Overall champions? Quite tough lah, the artsy team bore the brunt of it. I can't believe Nim and Sheed didn't get a medal. Come on, it was bloody obvious that they were better than the rest. For the refs to penalise them for a disputed ruling is just bullshit.
Man, i feel like quitting Sende after all this, but not the school team. I love the people too much.
I finally got the gifts for the tech team, i hope they like it :)
Plus i think my feelings for L are growing stronger, and that's just bad. In fact, it's beyond bad...
I was actually jealous that Haf Jap was with her during the camp.
What the hell is happening to me? What happened to the detached, rational, take-things-easy me? This is what you get for opening up, meh.
Looking forward to my quarters...
All in all, a very satisfying weekend. Could have gone better, especially with some nitty-gritty details in admin stuff, my fault for not briefing our managers properly. Plus i'm getting really pissed off with the coaches' unprofessional attitude, compounded with the referees' bias, and we have a recipe for disaster.
Overall champions? Quite tough lah, the artsy team bore the brunt of it. I can't believe Nim and Sheed didn't get a medal. Come on, it was bloody obvious that they were better than the rest. For the refs to penalise them for a disputed ruling is just bullshit.
Man, i feel like quitting Sende after all this, but not the school team. I love the people too much.
I finally got the gifts for the tech team, i hope they like it :)
Plus i think my feelings for L are growing stronger, and that's just bad. In fact, it's beyond bad...
I was actually jealous that Haf Jap was with her during the camp.
What the hell is happening to me? What happened to the detached, rational, take-things-easy me? This is what you get for opening up, meh.
Looking forward to my quarters...
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Bluek
Anyway, i realized i forgot all about my exam results...All Bs so i guess okay jugak lah :P
2 more days before comp starts, and i'll be staying over in school this time round. Hope everything goes fine, esp since it all seems to be falling into place. I'm worried about my match, but i guess it's only natural...
Oh well
2 more days before comp starts, and i'll be staying over in school this time round. Hope everything goes fine, esp since it all seems to be falling into place. I'm worried about my match, but i guess it's only natural...
Oh well
Sunday, May 27, 2007
L&P
The medical and balloting went smoothly yesterday, thank God. it certainly didn't appear that way at 9am. Only one doc was coming, and the damn office wasn't open :P
Eventually everything fell into place, we even started on time!!! A miracle.
Then the balloting and tech meeting (Stockings issue with the SP people, maybe they'll find a better material, who knows)
Got a bit pissed off at Cikgu O. I sounded a bit rude, i think, while trying to get my point across, but at least the other schools agreed with me. I have got to keep a tighter rein on my temper. Scares me sometimes. But everything else went off without a hitch, i have to say that i'm proud of the tech team, brilliant work (even though they'll never read this) Im fighting some guy from InstitTechEdn. Even if i win, my next opponent is from the same school. Aku takut!!!! Hahaha
Then had a meeting with H. Apparently we are running out of money, and we hav to find an alternative source, and soon. And i'm one of the guilty parties who have not paid up yet :p
Movie in the evening with Ni, Din and his relative. Watched Pirates. Pretty ok lah, but a tad long.
L&P today!!!! Damn tiring, but fun, especially with L around...
Was damn pancit, but got 5th in our wave i think. Canoeing leg was damn fast, man i miss rowing... Spending my time in close proximity with L does wonders for my mood, plus i have the pics to cherish heheh
Pergi Bugis makan, i revealed to L abt the Ab J and K Rubs thingy. I've been wanting to tell her for so long. Guess i'm not really good at keeping secrets...
Ok dah penat, nak gi tido
6 more days
Eventually everything fell into place, we even started on time!!! A miracle.
Then the balloting and tech meeting (Stockings issue with the SP people, maybe they'll find a better material, who knows)
Got a bit pissed off at Cikgu O. I sounded a bit rude, i think, while trying to get my point across, but at least the other schools agreed with me. I have got to keep a tighter rein on my temper. Scares me sometimes. But everything else went off without a hitch, i have to say that i'm proud of the tech team, brilliant work (even though they'll never read this) Im fighting some guy from InstitTechEdn. Even if i win, my next opponent is from the same school. Aku takut!!!! Hahaha
Then had a meeting with H. Apparently we are running out of money, and we hav to find an alternative source, and soon. And i'm one of the guilty parties who have not paid up yet :p
Movie in the evening with Ni, Din and his relative. Watched Pirates. Pretty ok lah, but a tad long.
L&P today!!!! Damn tiring, but fun, especially with L around...
Was damn pancit, but got 5th in our wave i think. Canoeing leg was damn fast, man i miss rowing... Spending my time in close proximity with L does wonders for my mood, plus i have the pics to cherish heheh
Pergi Bugis makan, i revealed to L abt the Ab J and K Rubs thingy. I've been wanting to tell her for so long. Guess i'm not really good at keeping secrets...
Ok dah penat, nak gi tido
6 more days
Friday, May 25, 2007
Lost and Found
As my faithful readers will know, i lost my ring a couple of weeks ago. And today, ta-da!!! It has reappeared in my life, bringing with it much relief...
Went for the medical check-up with the rest of the team juz now, then supper at BTimah. Spent time chatting, lepak-ing. I'm beginning to love this bunch of crazy people, even the quiet ones. And it certainly doesn't hurt that they're all easy on the eyes ;)
Went to Bedok with H and Rush yest, then to Bugis looking for the technical barang-barangs plus secretariat nyer benda. Lotsa fun, as usual, sharing our views on life etc. My bestest buddies in the team always crack me up.
i foresee a busy 2 weeks coming up, with L&P plus the C'ships. Good luck...
9 more days
Went for the medical check-up with the rest of the team juz now, then supper at BTimah. Spent time chatting, lepak-ing. I'm beginning to love this bunch of crazy people, even the quiet ones. And it certainly doesn't hurt that they're all easy on the eyes ;)
Went to Bedok with H and Rush yest, then to Bugis looking for the technical barang-barangs plus secretariat nyer benda. Lotsa fun, as usual, sharing our views on life etc. My bestest buddies in the team always crack me up.
i foresee a busy 2 weeks coming up, with L&P plus the C'ships. Good luck...
9 more days
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
More work
Had a nice chat with fadi on the phone. She sounds as sweet as ever, damn i miss her. Plus she sounds really happy, and i'm glad for that...
Sent F home, and we bumped into her dad!! How weird is that? And i didn't even know it was her dad, thought it was juz some random guy under her block. By the time i realized it was her dad, it was too late. He must think that i have some ulterior motives or something, slinking away like that...
And i received word that WTanjung wants to join the comp. Apparently they misunderstood our invitation letter. Kesian... But i hope they'll join next yr's tourney, it'll be fun watching them heheh.
That's it then, going to Bedok tmrw to print more stuff, and maybe breakfast with S next week :)
Sent F home, and we bumped into her dad!! How weird is that? And i didn't even know it was her dad, thought it was juz some random guy under her block. By the time i realized it was her dad, it was too late. He must think that i have some ulterior motives or something, slinking away like that...
And i received word that WTanjung wants to join the comp. Apparently they misunderstood our invitation letter. Kesian... But i hope they'll join next yr's tourney, it'll be fun watching them heheh.
That's it then, going to Bedok tmrw to print more stuff, and maybe breakfast with S next week :)
Monday, May 21, 2007
I'm Back
Training camp's over, and i'm utterly shagged. Didn't get much sleep, spent the entire first night at LT7A with L, finishing technical stuff. It was worth it, since i can never spend enough time alone with her :)
Overall, the whole thing was pretty fun, other than a few minor hiccups, which was no fault of the organising comm. Charades on the 2nd nite was particularly fun, 'Mortal Kombat', hilarious.
Plus we've decided to drop Eu from the artistic team category, 'cos he's juz not ready...
Bleargh, i can't think anymore, updates when i get back tmrw nite.
Maybe i'll dream of her...
Overall, the whole thing was pretty fun, other than a few minor hiccups, which was no fault of the organising comm. Charades on the 2nd nite was particularly fun, 'Mortal Kombat', hilarious.
Plus we've decided to drop Eu from the artistic team category, 'cos he's juz not ready...
Bleargh, i can't think anymore, updates when i get back tmrw nite.
Maybe i'll dream of her...
Monday, May 14, 2007
Gone
Oh well, she left. Again. Not that i wasn't expecting it. It was only a matter of time before she chafed under the perceived injustices that she felt she was subjected to. What an idiot.
To blame her situation on other people has got to be the most deluded thing ever. We didn't force her to sleep with him. Neither did we force her to abort/keep the baby. I don't know what the hell she wants. Idiot.
Oh well, orang dah tua. She can do whatever she wants with her life, and i certainly won't be around if she comes crawling back looking for help. Idiot. (Sense a recurring theme here?)
Idiot.
To blame her situation on other people has got to be the most deluded thing ever. We didn't force her to sleep with him. Neither did we force her to abort/keep the baby. I don't know what the hell she wants. Idiot.
Oh well, orang dah tua. She can do whatever she wants with her life, and i certainly won't be around if she comes crawling back looking for help. Idiot. (Sense a recurring theme here?)
Idiot.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
She's getting MARRIED!!!!
I. Don't. Believe. It.
Fadi is getting married!!! On my birthday!!! Wah!!!
I hope i can make it for the wedding, even though it's on the final day of the competition. Hopefully i can schedule my game early in the morning or something, if i even make it to the finals ( 15 people in my category!!! Wah lau!)
Anyway, i'm happy for her, really. The guy is one lucky dude. In my eyes, she's perfect, and i will remember her kindness, grace and gentleness until the day i die, and maybe even beyond that. I pray for her everyday, and this will not change even after 10 June.
You never forget your first.
Fadi is getting married!!! On my birthday!!! Wah!!!
I hope i can make it for the wedding, even though it's on the final day of the competition. Hopefully i can schedule my game early in the morning or something, if i even make it to the finals ( 15 people in my category!!! Wah lau!)
Anyway, i'm happy for her, really. The guy is one lucky dude. In my eyes, she's perfect, and i will remember her kindness, grace and gentleness until the day i die, and maybe even beyond that. I pray for her everyday, and this will not change even after 10 June.
You never forget your first.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Same old, Same old
Pretty decent day/week. Slack training for once, nasib baik gi lari ngan L in the morning. Then had a tech meeting with the rest. Headache sia, i can't believe that one of the schools actually juz gave out the forms yesterday. Are they THAT incompetent? :p
This year's competition has got to be the biggest ever in its history, so plenty to live up to.
Had another meeting after training, then went rounding with Sye, Sy and Hali. Best :)
Sy is damn funny, running gag : Peaches & Cream
And a new shopping date is set!!! Going out with N and Fani, yayy! And another outing on monday with S, Zo and Ai. Wooh, packed weeks ahead, can't wait. Hav to pack for camp as well...
Oooh, forgot to mention, went to watch 28 Weeks Later with Ni, Syiq and Din. Grim and gory, but worth it. Hmm first outing with the sisters. Let's hope it becomes a semi-regular thingy ;)
Soon, my precious
This year's competition has got to be the biggest ever in its history, so plenty to live up to.
Had another meeting after training, then went rounding with Sye, Sy and Hali. Best :)
Sy is damn funny, running gag : Peaches & Cream
And a new shopping date is set!!! Going out with N and Fani, yayy! And another outing on monday with S, Zo and Ai. Wooh, packed weeks ahead, can't wait. Hav to pack for camp as well...
Oooh, forgot to mention, went to watch 28 Weeks Later with Ni, Syiq and Din. Grim and gory, but worth it. Hmm first outing with the sisters. Let's hope it becomes a semi-regular thingy ;)
Soon, my precious
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Tired
Tired.
Gym, then normal training, who wouldn't be tired? But it was worth it, as always.
I hope H will decide to compete after all, maybe rekindle the drive in her.
One can only hope...
Something interesting happened last nite. Apparently F has given up on me. Is that good or bad?
I don't know, but there was certainly a sense of relief, that i'm no longer complicating her life.
Maybe 5, 6 years from now, i'll look back and regret my utterly dumb actions last nite.
20/20 hindsight.
Oh well, go with the flow...
Gym, then normal training, who wouldn't be tired? But it was worth it, as always.
I hope H will decide to compete after all, maybe rekindle the drive in her.
One can only hope...
Something interesting happened last nite. Apparently F has given up on me. Is that good or bad?
I don't know, but there was certainly a sense of relief, that i'm no longer complicating her life.
Maybe 5, 6 years from now, i'll look back and regret my utterly dumb actions last nite.
20/20 hindsight.
Oh well, go with the flow...
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Bugis
Went to Bugis today with Rush and H, spent some time catching up with each other. Sigh, i miss talking to them, especially after they both got attached... Ate at Banquet, where i had the most expensive bandung EVER!!! $1.60 for 1 freaking cup of rose-syrup with milk!! WTH?!??!
Then, we went to Bras Basah, Rush wanted to buy some stuff for her bf, so sweet rite? Amazing how much effort she puts in for that personal touch. Me? Nah...
H bought a cute belt from Dorothy Perkins (Naughty Girl hahaha)
I'm thinking of getting her something from Body Shop, when we step down from exco. And if everything turns out rite, she might still get to compete this year :)
But i guess, this will be the last one for both her and Rush.
And that was the highlight of my day, rite before i went to the shop, and then to Marsiling.
Gym tmrw, and then skills. Sounds tiring... No guts, no glory
Then, we went to Bras Basah, Rush wanted to buy some stuff for her bf, so sweet rite? Amazing how much effort she puts in for that personal touch. Me? Nah...
H bought a cute belt from Dorothy Perkins (Naughty Girl hahaha)
I'm thinking of getting her something from Body Shop, when we step down from exco. And if everything turns out rite, she might still get to compete this year :)
But i guess, this will be the last one for both her and Rush.
And that was the highlight of my day, rite before i went to the shop, and then to Marsiling.
Gym tmrw, and then skills. Sounds tiring... No guts, no glory
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Back to Training
Juz got back from Seremban, visit nenek. I've never seen her so frail, broke my heart. Sometimes it seems that she has already given up. Plus the squabbling among the family members certainly isn't helping. Nobody wants to take responsibilty.
Let this be a lesson to me
On a brighter note, training resumed after the exam break. Pancit sey. Both my legs almost cramped, and i was melayang-ing everywhere :p
BUT, the west coast/science park run with L certainly perked me up heh. though it was a wee bit long, although i'm sure L would vehemently disagree.
Anyway, we went for lunch after that, then Syiq and Ru accompanied me to K Rubs house to collect the uniforms. Kinda sad that's she's leaving, but i guess she needs her space. My respect for Ab J has dropped a couple of notches, man what an idiot. But who am I to judge?
I guess i'll be sending her off at the airport tonite, with the rest.
This flu is bugging me
Let this be a lesson to me
On a brighter note, training resumed after the exam break. Pancit sey. Both my legs almost cramped, and i was melayang-ing everywhere :p
BUT, the west coast/science park run with L certainly perked me up heh. though it was a wee bit long, although i'm sure L would vehemently disagree.
Anyway, we went for lunch after that, then Syiq and Ru accompanied me to K Rubs house to collect the uniforms. Kinda sad that's she's leaving, but i guess she needs her space. My respect for Ab J has dropped a couple of notches, man what an idiot. But who am I to judge?
I guess i'll be sending her off at the airport tonite, with the rest.
This flu is bugging me
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Shopping Trip
Juz came back from a shopping trip with N and Fani. Fun sia, didn't expect to enjoy myself this much, especially with fani, she's an intelligent, witty lady.
Ate at sakura far east, then shopped around for a while.
Supposed to go look for my wallet, but it was fani who ended up buying perfume and earrings hahaha
And we watched a movie at Cine, 'Fracture'. Not bad lah, but the big twist at the end was a bit disappointing, considering the excellent build-up thru'out the entire show.
We had to sprint like mad to catch the bus at Wheelock Place, training came in handy after all :p
Anyway, bought my first new book in months!!! Terry Pratchett's Science of Discworld. 18 bucks man, from Borders, but worth every single cent.
Gonna leave for Seremban in a few hours time, visit nenek. Hope she's doing fine.
Until next time
Ate at sakura far east, then shopped around for a while.
Supposed to go look for my wallet, but it was fani who ended up buying perfume and earrings hahaha
And we watched a movie at Cine, 'Fracture'. Not bad lah, but the big twist at the end was a bit disappointing, considering the excellent build-up thru'out the entire show.
We had to sprint like mad to catch the bus at Wheelock Place, training came in handy after all :p
Anyway, bought my first new book in months!!! Terry Pratchett's Science of Discworld. 18 bucks man, from Borders, but worth every single cent.
Gonna leave for Seremban in a few hours time, visit nenek. Hope she's doing fine.
Until next time
Monday, April 30, 2007
KNNCCB
Last paper is done, no more exams for 6 months, huzzah!!
But still kind of an anti-climax, was hopin i'd be spending the day with Nim or something, but i think she has a hot date. Good for her hahaha
Not a total waste though, went home with L instead (yayy!), after borrowing her dictionary for the Linguistics paper.
Phew, she saved my ass. Don't think i'll do that well for any of my modules this sem though, nothing outstanding, in my mind. 2nd-lower? Maybe...if i do well next sem, plus the damn FYP.
Went to help out at the shop, probably have to help again tmrw, being Labour Day and all.
Then a 6 click run, trying desperately to get back in shape :p
Legs & Paddles comin up soon, don't wanna make a fool of myself, heh.
And H juz told me, she won't be training anymore...what a complete and utter waste. I don't know what to say to her, i'm useless
But still kind of an anti-climax, was hopin i'd be spending the day with Nim or something, but i think she has a hot date. Good for her hahaha
Not a total waste though, went home with L instead (yayy!), after borrowing her dictionary for the Linguistics paper.
Phew, she saved my ass. Don't think i'll do that well for any of my modules this sem though, nothing outstanding, in my mind. 2nd-lower? Maybe...if i do well next sem, plus the damn FYP.
Went to help out at the shop, probably have to help again tmrw, being Labour Day and all.
Then a 6 click run, trying desperately to get back in shape :p
Legs & Paddles comin up soon, don't wanna make a fool of myself, heh.
And H juz told me, she won't be training anymore...what a complete and utter waste. I don't know what to say to her, i'm useless
Ring
I lost my ring!!!! Argh :p
Other than that, one more paper to go, in 5hrs time, and then freedom!!!
Watch out world!
Other than that, one more paper to go, in 5hrs time, and then freedom!!!
Watch out world!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Exams
To all my faithful reader(s) out there (hah!) i've been very busy mugging for my
exams (hah! again)
Had my first paper on Saturday, the Materials paper :p Ok lah, i guess, couldn't finish the damn thing though, didn't expect that i would have so much to write.
Oooh, then i went for the fund-raising thingy after that, did a bit of work at the registration table, basically juz slacking around...
L looked gorgeous in black, as always, missed my chance to go home with her after the event :(
Food was great, liked the brownies, multiple helpings yadda yadda yadda. Kinda surprised so many people turned up, although apparently many more tickets had been sold. So all in all, a successful night for the club.
But, back to the important stuff, like how amazing L looked, heh.
Man, i sound like some love-struck fool, holding out my palms in supplication, hoping the princess would deign to give me a look. Well, i certainly hope i don't look like that in public.
In private, i can live with that, heck i HAVE been living like that. But not too much in public, eh?
Aaah, watched Miss S'pore Universe on Sunday. Amazes me every time... Where have all the pretty ladies gone? Is the pageant a massive 'hot-chick repellent' or something? Then can someone explain to me how is it that a 30+ married woman (A. Cruz) can trounce almost all of the 'beauty' contestants on show? Anyone?
Alrites, next paper is on Thurs, ethics. And i have gym tomorrow, hopefully more people turn up, maybe L? Rite...Hope is sustenance for fools
exams (hah! again)
Had my first paper on Saturday, the Materials paper :p Ok lah, i guess, couldn't finish the damn thing though, didn't expect that i would have so much to write.
Oooh, then i went for the fund-raising thingy after that, did a bit of work at the registration table, basically juz slacking around...
L looked gorgeous in black, as always, missed my chance to go home with her after the event :(
Food was great, liked the brownies, multiple helpings yadda yadda yadda. Kinda surprised so many people turned up, although apparently many more tickets had been sold. So all in all, a successful night for the club.
But, back to the important stuff, like how amazing L looked, heh.
Man, i sound like some love-struck fool, holding out my palms in supplication, hoping the princess would deign to give me a look. Well, i certainly hope i don't look like that in public.
In private, i can live with that, heck i HAVE been living like that. But not too much in public, eh?
Aaah, watched Miss S'pore Universe on Sunday. Amazes me every time... Where have all the pretty ladies gone? Is the pageant a massive 'hot-chick repellent' or something? Then can someone explain to me how is it that a 30+ married woman (A. Cruz) can trounce almost all of the 'beauty' contestants on show? Anyone?
Alrites, next paper is on Thurs, ethics. And i have gym tomorrow, hopefully more people turn up, maybe L? Rite...Hope is sustenance for fools
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Engagements and Such
Went to Ogy's engagement on Sunday night... made me think about my own, heh.
She's a year older, and she already has a job, and now a fiance. Wonder when my time will come, or if it ever will.
Went to school on Monday, completed most of my Engin Prof help-sheet, then off to Marsiling. Bloody hell, sibeh tiring, panting like mad after the kicks, macam nak pengsan :p
Not training for a week plus all the food yang dibedal does not make a good combo.
Ah, had gym training today, fun and tiring, as always, even though only 4 of us turned up, but expected lah, with the exam period and all. Must improve my chin-ups and abs-work, tsk tsk.
And I have the industry function thingy in about 12 hours time, so i guess it's back to school tomorrow morning. Maybe i can convince the rest to go for dinner after their training...Banquet again?
Hmm, i met S and her boyfriend at Jurong Point, does he know/recognize me? Entahlah, aku pun tak kisah.
She's a year older, and she already has a job, and now a fiance. Wonder when my time will come, or if it ever will.
Went to school on Monday, completed most of my Engin Prof help-sheet, then off to Marsiling. Bloody hell, sibeh tiring, panting like mad after the kicks, macam nak pengsan :p
Not training for a week plus all the food yang dibedal does not make a good combo.
Ah, had gym training today, fun and tiring, as always, even though only 4 of us turned up, but expected lah, with the exam period and all. Must improve my chin-ups and abs-work, tsk tsk.
And I have the industry function thingy in about 12 hours time, so i guess it's back to school tomorrow morning. Maybe i can convince the rest to go for dinner after their training...Banquet again?
Hmm, i met S and her boyfriend at Jurong Point, does he know/recognize me? Entahlah, aku pun tak kisah.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Secret Recipe
Went bowling today, with the emo-group, almost forgot my ring :p
Damn fun lah, as always, i enjoy being with all of them, even though i don't usually talk much.
Then we had dinner at Secret Recipe (woohoo!!) Damn bloated, ordered the chicken and then we had cheesecake, plus aper-aper punyer cake entah... Sedapppp
Damn fattening sia, have to go and run tmrw, if i can wake up, that is.
Then S and I spent some time together before she went for training. It's getting easier to let go now, i guess...we both know it can't last. But damn, when she kisses me, it's hard not to get lost in that eternal moment. I've decided that no matter what, i'll let her think that i've found someone else, and that we have to move on... No matter what.
Examphobic
Damn fun lah, as always, i enjoy being with all of them, even though i don't usually talk much.
Then we had dinner at Secret Recipe (woohoo!!) Damn bloated, ordered the chicken and then we had cheesecake, plus aper-aper punyer cake entah... Sedapppp
Damn fattening sia, have to go and run tmrw, if i can wake up, that is.
Then S and I spent some time together before she went for training. It's getting easier to let go now, i guess...we both know it can't last. But damn, when she kisses me, it's hard not to get lost in that eternal moment. I've decided that no matter what, i'll let her think that i've found someone else, and that we have to move on... No matter what.
Examphobic
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Selections
Have to get this off my mind
First off, the process for the girls' selections was f***ed up. Totally unfair, and the coach was blatantly biased. H should be squaring off with Sy, but instead she's out of the squad after playing only one game. WTH?!??!
And for the team event, he should have given the juniors a chance ah, instead of selecting D...What happened to all the talk of 'attendance' and all that shit?
Nonsense lah...
H is the best VP i could have hoped for, and one hell of a competitor. And a great friend. I don't tell her enough of that... maybe i should...soon
Should i ask for one more round of selections? Hmmm
First off, the process for the girls' selections was f***ed up. Totally unfair, and the coach was blatantly biased. H should be squaring off with Sy, but instead she's out of the squad after playing only one game. WTH?!??!
And for the team event, he should have given the juniors a chance ah, instead of selecting D...What happened to all the talk of 'attendance' and all that shit?
Nonsense lah...
H is the best VP i could have hoped for, and one hell of a competitor. And a great friend. I don't tell her enough of that... maybe i should...soon
Should i ask for one more round of selections? Hmmm
Damn Virus
Let's see...what happened yesterday, hmmm.
Our presentation went well, they actually thought ours was one of the better ones that they had seen, yayy!!! I might actually do well for this module, heheh
And talked to N on msn till 4 freaking a.m, talking about my troubles... Man i'm tired of all this :p
My parents came back from Malaysia today, nek's fine, thank God, but she broke her pelvic bone :(
Im visiting her, after my exams...kalau boleh, this week pun aku sanggup turun, but my parent's are not free. End of the month then...
Had my selections today, played like crap, what else is new. Plus i think i injured my knee or something, probably have to lay off training for a couple of weeks. Before that, i went for my run with L and her twin, had to stop after 5 rounds though, back started cramping...damn i feel oooold
And i didn't get my chocolate, heh. Had KFC after training, definitely not something to be done on a weekly basis. First time i've seen so many of us out for dinner, practically 20 people came, woohoo!!! But i couldn't send F home because of that, maybe i'll go mugging with her tmrw, or something...
My msn is still infected with the damn photo album virus, did a full system scan, plus deleted some registry files. Hope everything turns out fine :P
Until the next time, future me
Our presentation went well, they actually thought ours was one of the better ones that they had seen, yayy!!! I might actually do well for this module, heheh
And talked to N on msn till 4 freaking a.m, talking about my troubles... Man i'm tired of all this :p
My parents came back from Malaysia today, nek's fine, thank God, but she broke her pelvic bone :(
Im visiting her, after my exams...kalau boleh, this week pun aku sanggup turun, but my parent's are not free. End of the month then...
Had my selections today, played like crap, what else is new. Plus i think i injured my knee or something, probably have to lay off training for a couple of weeks. Before that, i went for my run with L and her twin, had to stop after 5 rounds though, back started cramping...damn i feel oooold
And i didn't get my chocolate, heh. Had KFC after training, definitely not something to be done on a weekly basis. First time i've seen so many of us out for dinner, practically 20 people came, woohoo!!! But i couldn't send F home because of that, maybe i'll go mugging with her tmrw, or something...
My msn is still infected with the damn photo album virus, did a full system scan, plus deleted some registry files. Hope everything turns out fine :P
Until the next time, future me
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Presentation
I have a presentation in 10 (?) hrs time, industrial design, with a shirt, tie, the works. Hope i might actually do well for this damn module, even though i did less work than last sem, heheh.
But damn it, why do i have to present? Malas ah, plus i don't want to screw it up for the rest :p
Went to school today, ostensibly to study, but ended up socializing, as always. Learnt some interesting stuff about my training head, guess he's in a similar situation that i was in...good luck dude. Plus i can't find the "doctor's" blog. Dammit.
Plus i think my best friend is pissed at me, probably about the selections last week...
And i told Zo about S and L. A good idea? I don't know. I guess the four of us will be meeting up again soon, maybe this Friday, see how it goes :) Bowling and Food!!!!
Saw L at training today, smsed and chatted a bit. Can't believe i'm still flirting with her, but i can't help it lah. She's juz irresistible, plus i think she's cute, damn huggable sia...
Can't take my eyes off her, and she knows it, damn. And she's sweet too. Sigh, what is a guy to do?
Oh well...
But damn it, why do i have to present? Malas ah, plus i don't want to screw it up for the rest :p
Went to school today, ostensibly to study, but ended up socializing, as always. Learnt some interesting stuff about my training head, guess he's in a similar situation that i was in...good luck dude. Plus i can't find the "doctor's" blog. Dammit.
Plus i think my best friend is pissed at me, probably about the selections last week...
And i told Zo about S and L. A good idea? I don't know. I guess the four of us will be meeting up again soon, maybe this Friday, see how it goes :) Bowling and Food!!!!
Saw L at training today, smsed and chatted a bit. Can't believe i'm still flirting with her, but i can't help it lah. She's juz irresistible, plus i think she's cute, damn huggable sia...
Can't take my eyes off her, and she knows it, damn. And she's sweet too. Sigh, what is a guy to do?
Oh well...
Hospital
Nenek's in hospital, after a bad (?) fall, parents off to visit. Hope she makes a swift and complete recovery, insyaallah. Don't know what i would do when she eventually leaves us...
Words are never enough to say what i want to say. She has always been there for me, in my earliest memories. Trips to her place are fun-filled events, filled with warmth, care and above all, love.
To one of the greatest women I know
Words are never enough to say what i want to say. She has always been there for me, in my earliest memories. Trips to her place are fun-filled events, filled with warmth, care and above all, love.
To one of the greatest women I know
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Almost virgin post
Let's see...this is a hell lot easier than i thought (the whole blogging thing)
Note to self : Don't use keywords, so that nosy buggers (like myself) can't google this blog
Alrites, where to begin? How about today...
Same shit as always, training, late lunch at vivo, then home and off to the bbq.
Exams coming soon, and yet i'm curiously drawn to waste my time at this most humble of pursuits, penning down my thoughts.
As always, my customary morning run with L. I always enjoy the few moments we get to spend together, even though i know nothing could possibly come out of it. But yeah, bright spots are hard to come by, and i intend to savour every last drop.
I wonder why is it so hard for me to let go and move on, and try to rescue what little shred of dignity i have left, instead of hankering after something i know i cannot get.
Wah lau, so jiwang :p
And the situation with F is as complicated as ever. Am i leading her on? Am i lying to myself?
Why does everything have to be so hard? Heck, if she had told me this last year, i would have dived headfirst into it, flailing arms and all. But now, i hesitate. For what, i do not know.
I need time lah, maybe if i keep on chanting it, it'll actually make sense.
The power of suggestion, heh. Another note to self, try not to flirt around with the girls too much, kurang manis ah. Must try to remember, this is not the nat'l team.
Ah yesss, nat'l team. Do i want to join up again? After the comp. maybe...hope it'll be as fun as last time. Maybe the thingy with S wasn't such a good idea, in retrospect (of course,u fool)
At least i'm not breaking down like a blabbering. love-struck fool...not so often anyway.
Is this all my life revolves around? Damn i need a new hobby, or at least a girlfriend.
Wait, scratch that last one.
Waiting for my cats
Note to self : Don't use keywords, so that nosy buggers (like myself) can't google this blog
Alrites, where to begin? How about today...
Same shit as always, training, late lunch at vivo, then home and off to the bbq.
Exams coming soon, and yet i'm curiously drawn to waste my time at this most humble of pursuits, penning down my thoughts.
As always, my customary morning run with L. I always enjoy the few moments we get to spend together, even though i know nothing could possibly come out of it. But yeah, bright spots are hard to come by, and i intend to savour every last drop.
I wonder why is it so hard for me to let go and move on, and try to rescue what little shred of dignity i have left, instead of hankering after something i know i cannot get.
Wah lau, so jiwang :p
And the situation with F is as complicated as ever. Am i leading her on? Am i lying to myself?
Why does everything have to be so hard? Heck, if she had told me this last year, i would have dived headfirst into it, flailing arms and all. But now, i hesitate. For what, i do not know.
I need time lah, maybe if i keep on chanting it, it'll actually make sense.
The power of suggestion, heh. Another note to self, try not to flirt around with the girls too much, kurang manis ah. Must try to remember, this is not the nat'l team.
Ah yesss, nat'l team. Do i want to join up again? After the comp. maybe...hope it'll be as fun as last time. Maybe the thingy with S wasn't such a good idea, in retrospect (of course,u fool)
At least i'm not breaking down like a blabbering. love-struck fool...not so often anyway.
Is this all my life revolves around? Damn i need a new hobby, or at least a girlfriend.
Wait, scratch that last one.
Waiting for my cats
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